09 April 2009

Rough week

Wow its been a rough week emotionally.
I cant stop thinking about T. It seems every where i go I think about her. but I had some positive cause I managed to find out that the adoption assciation had a meeting and they going to assighn my case so hopefully I can get an up date about T really soon cause I really miss her and not knowing is really hard.

Letters

Well I finally get an email from the adoptive parents from my old social worker who is in Australia.
Now yes I’m happy don’t get me wrong I’m over the moon to hear how T is doing.

And boy is she cute she has these eyes wow well yes I’m bias she’s part of me. And she’s started talking and I just get so proud and tearful when I read about her.

But I’m also angry because I emailed and Facebooked my social worker (who left South Africa in Dec 2008) in January asking her how I could email the adoptive parents and she never responded and suddenly I get this mail Hi hope you well here is an update.

My flat mate says I should leave it but I have spent the last 3 months trying to find my file and get a social worker to take my file on so that I can continue contact with the adoptive parents. And this is no easy task because it’s now all the red tape and the fact that there are so few adoption social workers left in the country. It took a month and half for them (social workers in adoption) to have a meeting so they can bring up my case and to decide who to allocate another social worker who will then act as postman. Because I’m not allowed to have direct contact with the adoptive parents. and I really understand this law. But it’s frustrating when all you want is an email and you can’t just email the person directly. Now all of this could have been avoided if she had just handed my file over like she was suppose to. Then the file wouldnt have been closed. and i wouldnt have had all this emotional termoil cause i really felt like i had lost her a second time when they told me my file had been closed and nobody knew where it was.
Anyway thats my itch for the day. She is still beautiful and yes I will always be bias.